Ending

At the moment.. i hope i can find the end of this problem..i hope i can end of this journey soon..but without hardship how its gonna end right..i really need positive vibes..hoping Allah will grant someone that can lift up my negative thinking..living or surrounded with this negative thinking is tired..restless..even u sleep u didn't feel like u r sleep..and as for me i keep wanna eating more and more..so that i can sleep..i keep running from the problem that i need to face..half of my soul wanna fight n living in this cruel world..but half of my soul wanna end this things soon..

Sometime, my mind keep thinking.. if i can finish this..i really wanna end myself..i dont have any mission to achieve..not like other people that aim high such as to get high payment or salary..living in big house..having a big car..having a big fmly..meeting people..

As for me, i wanna go mekah n madinah again.. i wanna stay there..n hoping that i will die there. Closer with Allah is the things that i want..but i keep thinking n thinking again again..to end my life by myself..i know and realize everthing in this world is own by Allah..but my mind..didnt ashamed to keep repeating to end  her own life..yes i hate this thinking..but i just cant stop it..*tired n bye

chop..lately..klo x pukul 2..mmg xleh nk tdo..stress..nk tdo awal..nk bgn awal..but me klo bgn awl akan shaking..mcm scary nk hadap morning..kind a sad but the truth..yup...k bye again