Disappointed Me

 Assalamualaikum dearself,

At the moment, i just wanna write what i feel..

Dah nk masuk 3 mggu, aku di fasa kecewa..spt biasa, bila frust ni mmg ak akn krp menulis..bukan benda ilmiah tp more too the "my feelings". i was like.. "im tired living" "i wanna rest forever" "im tired of facing people" "facing problem in future ahead"..and baru2 ni been triggered sbb xleh nk g kenduri..org biasa myb akan ckp..alah g kenduri je pn..kenapa emo sgt tah..

H> E>L>L>O kenduri tu kwn rpt3 pny knduri...klo jauh...ak pn xheran sgt..
benda ni bukan 1st time jadi..dr dlu lagi..benda ak plg frust adalah..SAMPAI bila asyik nk kena CONTROL!!!!..ak pnt..pnt sgt hdup trkongkong..bukan la nk bebas sgt..tp at least bg la chance ak meet up kwn3 rpt ak...bkn nk bt bnda xsenonoh pun..

AND ak tired sgt nk manage fmly..well more specific..kind a need to manage all housework..ahh SERIOUSLY..im REALLY REALLY REALLY TIRED..i know i should not complain..but..

lately even SUICIDE things keep coming..
i HATE MYSELF SO MUCH LAAATEEELYYY..
n nobody notice it..

its kind a sad..i really need freedom..i need to free my SOUL...
my SOOUL is exhausted so much..
even sometimes it reach its limits..
suffocated too much..

i dont want to be in this state for long time..
but..i just being here...and what i really hate..
I CANT DO ANYTHING TO OVERCOME IT>>!!!